Of the bridge or carry on? at 11:09 PM

Why?

Why does life hurt so much?

Why can't life be sweet as honey?

Why does a single boy in a big group get thrown away?

Everyone that was close to him has climbed up further in front,

But only he has fallen down and need to go back up all the steps again,

Taken away from faith,

And doesn't know how to get them back up to where he is.

Why can't it be like a fairytale, happily every after?

Why can't life be like a walk in the park?

Why does life make you feel like whatever you do it isn't good enough?

Why suffer and get results and finally isn’t good enough?

Why can't life distribute pain more equally among many people?

Why choose him?

Life is just unfair,

Life is bad to him,

Life eats him inside out,

Life tears him apart inside.

Then he wonders,

Will it keep hurting forever?

Will the pain be there till the end of life?

Is there any medication to stop it?

Then he wonders,

What options do I have?

Kill myself of the bridge?

Or

Just hope and suffer there will be cure?

Then life makes him realize,

IT CAN GET WORSE,

And the only thing keeping him alive,

Is HOPE.

You may not believe me at 10:30 PM

I know u may not believe me

The answer is not clear

But if I can let u see

What im trying to tell u

I'm seeking my feelings from up above

To get to know u like a mother knows a son

The answer may end in what we think is love

But god only knows what will happen

When u read this, you'll be in a different place

You can be gone anywhere to a year,

And it might be difficult to trace

So this is not so hard to hear.

The years will come and go

By then I'll be off to somewhere

And it will seem like a long time ago

When we both needed more of our knowledge.

So this is my dream

Maybe in the future v can be one

A pronounced team

Saying that v finally won.

The timing for now

Won't be good for either of us

V just can't let this allow

And this seems like a must

When both of us have our futures set straight

I will have to admit

That it seems like our fate

For each other, one will be in it.

For the time being

Lets still remain the best of friends

It won't be like I'm fleeing

Because of love will never end.

For the both of us the future is our calling

Both of us doing the things we want to do

The answer and wait might be appalling

But that is our final clue.

It might be our destiny to b together

Only the future knows the best

Maybe v will be with one another forever

Or that can be one's final test.

Sure v can still text and call and chat

As best friends should

Still let us not go down and fall

I knew all along v could.

For now let what I have written all be true!

I can't express in more words

You are.

Awesome, Beautiful and Interesting.

Copywrite –VIN- 21/09/09

It's Funny at 1:20 PM

it's funny how hello is always accompanied with goodbye
it's funny how good memories can start to make you cry
it's funny how forever never seems to go to the end
it’s funny how a single day can change your whole life
it's funny how much can be done if you forget the past
it's funny how “friends” just appear when you are down
it's funny how when you need someone they never are around
it's funny how people change and think they're so much better
it's funny how many lies are packed into one “love letter”
it's funny how one night can contain so much regret
it's funny how you can forgive but not forget
it's funny how ironic life turns out to be
it’s funny how a day out can become a nightmare
it’s funny how a single mistake it remembered where a 1000 good deeds are forgotten,
it’s funny how honey can change to someone’s poison,
but the funniest part of all, is none of thats funny to me

--LIFE-- at 12:57 PM

Life is so great;
Life is so awesome.
Life can be a happy day,
or night with tears.

Life can be a struggle,
a fight you never started;
and yet we keep on going,
fighting to prove we are right.

Life can throw salt to us,
to where we already hurt.
Yet, life can be fantastic,
as if a holiday in Hawaii.

Life will have its ups and downs,
this fact we bear in mind.
So of we go down this road,
blind as a bat, till a junction comes,
for us to decide.

ThE FeeLiNG at 5:06 PM

Have u ever felt like u was standing in the middle of everything
But when reality hits n u r just surrounded by nothing....
That's how I feel

When I think of all the trust I put in u
I thought my feelings meant the world to you
I have a love for u that fills a pool
A love that can make the people go ‘WOW’

I need a love that stands the movement time,
a love that will last when rain or storm hits the heart
a love that's just for me not to be shared with anyone else...

someone to promise me
you'll love me
Love me forever
That's the way love should be.


"For some it's just another day to live....
For me its has been a year like this…
I just want something different is my chapter,
 because no matter many times I dream I keep getting the same old line 
I'm not gonna let myself be anything else but different. 
Today is just a day I sit in front of my laptop 
wish something could make me happy------"

So Much at 10:22 PM

Hard as stone 
with hidden fears 
I love in silence 
no one hears 

Eyes of diamond
never to ugly
locked feelings inside
never expressed vividly 

Spirit of steel
never broken 
frozen emotions 
left un told

Heart of gold 
sweet as can be 
beautiful soul 
u means so much to me.

Copywrite –VIN- 12/09/09

TIME at 10:18 PM

V were together for many years
V became as a community
It was like I had ur blood running through my veins
It was like I had ur breath running through my lungs
Just take a moment and think about it
V could read each others thoughts
Finish each others sentences b4 either of us could finish it
Without saying a word
V could feel each other feelings although v r far
U remember all that?
There is so much ill like to change
But I can't turn back the minutes
Ur memory will always be apart of my life and my heart
I still talk to you 
And wonder if you hear
Sometimes I can feel you near
Even in my dreams
My heart cant say good-bye
Just afraid your memory will die
A part of my heart is with you
And it's yours to keep forever
Now that u r gone
Im left here standing alone

Copywrite -VIN- 12/09/09

Im Here at 4:16 PM

Lets go now into the darkness of ur thoughts
Hurry up now its time, were waiting
For u
With a confused mind,
Don't look back now or u will regret it
U don't see what’s right in front of u
But worst of all, u just let it run by u
Don't think its ok
Don't think its right
Don’t think too much
When the tears u cry will not fade
And in a way u wished that they wasn’t there
U thought that if u let him in your heart that nothing
Would change
Ur wrong and u knew that you would be to
But
Don't worry when all goes wrong
Don’t worry when u feel lonely
Don’t worry when u get confused
Don’t worry when everybody else hates u
Don’t worry when ur day is bad
Don't worry when all else fails
Don't worry when the love is gone
Don't worry when all is dark
Don't worry when u think that u can't take it any more

I'm here for u always.

25/8/09 –VIN-

LIFE ERROR at 1:27 AM

Loved me for a little,

But you could not love me long,

You gave me smile of happiness

and made my spirit strong.

You said to me the words,

and made my wills go on

Loved me for an hour

Maybe a day or two,

But only with your eyes

your lips I could not capture

by speed or by surprise,

Out of a world of laughter

Suddenly I am sad...

Day and night it haunts me

The kiss I never had.

You!!!! Say it NOW.. at 12:17 AM

I tried to tell you I love youbut the words were hard to be found.I'm always thinking about youyou're the only one on my mind.
I’m always looking at your picture
You’re the only one I want to see.
I’m always dreaming of you
You’re the best dream I had along these years.Oh why do I act so shy forever hiding my face behind the walls,I should learn to laugh and not to cry.
Put yourself in my shoes,
And you’ll know how the disco beat in my heart sounds.There were times I tried to hint you but sometimes you just get it the other way,You wanted me to tell you but I

kept changing the topic.
I'm afraid that I am not the guy

you've searched for all these years.

I will kindly leave now don't you cry

try to hold back your tears.

It's been so long I haven't seen you

for quite awhile
When I think of how we me met it only

brings back your smile.
I remember when I made you smile,

and told you ill always be there,
I loved you then I love you now and

I'll hold you in my heart,
I’ll try to bust out the feeling.